Skip to main content

Games

I always know when it's time to let go but I sometimes want to believe others and decided to trust their poor words instead of myself. There is a great price to pay when you fail to listen and it was great settling the bill and even greater to be up to date with my debts. No regrets my darling, just gratitude.

I have learned my darling a great deal from my mistakes. I now know that not everyone is ready to love or be loved. Love is a scary thing when you don't know who you truly are or what your purpose is but mainly when you don't love yourself. The emptiness you feel inside that you desperately try to fill with alcohol or work will never get filled. Worry not, most people are the same and maybe one day you will have the courage to confront your fears and give yourself a chance. You truly deserve it!

Two and a half kiss later I am still where I was when I first meet you. Total darkness. Were you real or was it just my overactive imagination. The door to your heart was always closed and so were the other doors. I got a glimpse of your soul...and you were amazing, don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. You have a beautiful soul and resonate to mine at so many levels that I find it hard to explain in words. I feel you...and I see you. You and only you. Even if you are not ready to accept a lot of things you free to run as far as you like but we both know that you will never be able to hide from me. You can pretend I don't exist but I know what you truly feel. Run and do your thing, avoid feelings for as much as you like. Lie to yourself for as long as you need, it's ok.

I will be right here, picking up cobwebs from the corners of my soul. I will be signing and dancing in the moonlight. I will die and be born again. I will love and be loved.

When you get tired of playing games come back to me, I might be still young.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Here but not there

Am I still me if the one I was was yesterday got lost? Am I still me if the feeling that keept me alive till now vanished in thin air?  My feet were never bare before, my dream never dared to be born. The words are just that words they can't touch unless they're meant to caress . Let me sit at your feet because I feel like not because you want me to. Let stand behind you because I like the view better.  Let me be me because I don't feel like faking anymore else anymore.  I have nothing  offer you but have everything to give to myself. 

Despre tine

Azi, de ziua mea am realizat mai mult ca oricand ca trebuie sa ma intorc la tine sa iti multumesc. Chiar daca iti repet zi de zi cat de mult te iubesc, nu cred ca ma auzi cu adevarat! Am sa ti-o repet din nou ' TE IUBESC' pare un un cuvant banal, lipsit de sens si poate ca nu va face niciodata dreptate sentimemtelor mele. Cred ca undeva in stele a fost scris ca noi sa ne cunoastem si mai ales sa ne iubim. Cred ca tot acolo ne-a fost scrisa viata pagina de pagina pe parcurs ce noi am scris-o cu fiecare gest, gand sau respiratie, acum am sa scriu eu pagina iubirii noastre. Cred ca vremea a sosit sa iti spun adevarul, desi il stii nu stiu daca crezi cu adevarat dar nu-ti face nimic, avem o eternitate inainte, asa ca nu e nici o graba. Viata aici s-ar putea sa fie scurta sau lunga (tii minte ca plangeam ore in sir de teama ca am sa te pierd?, acum stiu, e imposibil) sa stii ca ti-a fost dar sa fii al meu si numai al meu! Sa stii ca sunt parte din sufl...

Casa din vis

In vise sunt asteptata mereu de aceiasi casa. Timpul n-a schimbat nimic din infatisarea ei sau a strazii pe care se afla. E un loc unde timpul s-a oprit pentru a ma astepta pe mine. Poata casei, usa, geamurile sunt mereu deschise indemnandu-ma sa intru.Florile sunt mereu inflorite si inmiresmate tanjind dupa atingerea mea. Probabil intr-o lume fara de lege si fara de timp aceea casa imi apartine si si plange de dorul meu asa cu si eu in lumea ciudata a viselor ma intorc mereu  de unde am plecat....