Forgiveness

Standing still waiting for a draft of wind to push me away. But the wind is not felt and his effects not seen. Here I am standing still.

I am thinking that maybe an earth quake would wake me up.

Torn between my dreams and reality I feel the greater loss of my life was you. I did not lose ! You were never mine to begin with. 

I never touched your face, or kissed your lips or whisped my love and lust in your ear. You were not mine! Not in this life. You were mine before. Do you remember? I feel it every time you are near, I see it when our eyes meet.
I must have been a terrible lover ! I must be punished for all the evils I done to you.  Otherwise, why would you not want me? Why would you be so distant, cold and un-mine?

There are days when I doubt my sanity, today is one of them. Maybe you do not even know I exist, maybe you do not care! Maybe you are just a product of my overactive imagination !

I cannot make you see me ... and will never make you love me. I learned to accept. Today I learn to forgive myself.

Be happy my love ...